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I have been asking myself, "What does carry your cross mean?'  I haven't gone looking to see how others interpret the phrase: carry your cross.  I am afraid their explanations will still be too abstract for me in saying the same thing I already know: how to carry the cross.  But maybe once I see how my answer constructs itself, here, I will be curious to see how my thoughts ground someone else's interpretation.  Because that is such a popular phrase, I do wonder what it means to others. What is a cross?  Solid wood, something heavy, something Jesus carried up a hill, something Jesus would die upon, something that weakened Jesus, something Jesus innocently suffered upon What do I carry that feels like a cross? Truth.   How does truth feel like a cross?  I tuned in to a rosary episode, and the guest made a remark I had never heard someone say before, but I did agree.  He said, "The church is afraid of human suffering."  It was not easy to ...

I pulled into the garage and sat well after the heat of the day set into my bones searching for a rendition of this song.    I wanted an instrumental cover that would move me to choice.    I guess I could have at least rolled down the Subaru’s windows as I sat but I cannot think of everything for myself, though, I try.  Nichole Nordeman’s “The Unmaking” shuffled on that day’s drive.    Blasting it reminded me again to find an instrumental to “Legacy”.     So, I stopped what I was doing.  I found one.    Sometimes I do that kind of thing in the garage because what Matt really doesn’t know is: it actually bothers me more to be zeroed on a screen when he’s in the room than it bothers him. I just liked how approachable the pianist was.    She was playing with her fingers like anyone’s dad seems to type on the computer.    I liked the element of a bell, too.    I can feel like a doorbell somet...

I have a few favorite gifs, and this is one of them.  I have sent it to Kate and Amanda, and I think of my mom, too, when I sent it to my sisters.  I am very choosy in how I use that gif. Matt recommended I delete my gif keyboard to help.  But I am stubborn, I deleted my gif keyboard.  I know I need to trade my phone in because the battery is dead tired, but out of all the phones I’ve had, I like this one.  I like this one even against my Kyocera phone with the little snake game.  I put a ruby red faceplate on that Kyocera, like Dorothy’s shoes ruby.  My first cell phone as a senior in high school was tight.  My phone notified me last night my screen time was up 11% for an average of 9 hours of screen time.  I think I know how so it makes sense to me, but to make it make even more “How.”, I don’t have Facebook’s application on my phone, and I don’t own an Instagram or TikTok.  As my mostly accurate friend would say, I think my YouTube su...

Remember when I wrote someone asked me, “Should one person be everything for another person?”  And remember when I wrote I answered just, “No.” to his question? Well, the explanation came to me today of why simply “No.” as the answer felt right.  The message of what felt to me as the explanation of why “No.” came to me through Mom this morning: https://sap-m3khz3.snappages.site/page/67f1c6a4-514a-11ec-b9d7-0ab397c9c728#/episode/25c2760fe66cf71a4e07b3a9da1ad992 The message, as my mostly accurate friend would say, is “Live!”  /lyev/ (July 11, 2022 When we drive the back way, there is a marquee I like to read.  Church marquees are getting good!  I don’t like playful church marquees.  I like church marquees that tell me something I know but have never heard it out that way.  Yesterday Matt and I were driving to look at metal plants.  I can keep four hydrangeas but I cannot keep succulents, why I am going metal.  Matt knows not to point out bluebo...

Today I am going to see how my medallions move.  I haven’t moved the car since Sunday before Day 53, and Matt says he needs to give his truck a rest.  Today we decided a portable ac would help this summer that descended upon us earlier.  We are not summer people.  Matt loves his truck, and I always remind him: I found your truck.  I searched diligently for a gently used Toyota Tacoma, and I found one with the right fit in our hometown at the Atzenhoffer dealership.  I like Atzenhoffer’s marketing.  On a Victoria billboard, Atzenhoffer replaced Chevrolet with Atzenhoffer.  Same difference to me. Atzenhoffer is a Chevrolet dealership.   I remember when Dad didn’t have a Ford truck.  The Chevrolet was a Cheyenne model in emerald green, and he even let Amanda drive with a trailer in tow.  Amanda helped Dad break his truck in.  I think the hurt of a dent is helped by the love for the person who made the dent.  Matt dropped a la...

Out of the blue, my cousin asked me to remember.   He is a storyboard artist for Disney.    He is living his childhood dream, and we all witnessed the work getting there.    He was always alone with his craft growing up.     I try to not use absolutes unless absolutely necessary, and that is an absolutely necessary absolute to use. He is working on a storyboard, and his character works in gig economy.      I didn’t even know what gig economy was until he asked me to share highlights of my stories for his research in developing the character.    I thought he came to a “right place”.     He said the dirtier the better.  I remembered:  If you like FRIENDS, you’ll understand me: I am just a 32 y/o Dogwalker with a fat lip.  Beau’s Mom warned me Beau poops about five times on a walk.    She provided me bags, but I’d share my poop bags for Beau with her.    My goal was to get all...

 4 Reasons God is Disappointing You I had to hear what the four reasons not might be but what the four reasons are this title suggests.  I liked the message.  https://youtu.be/mUAo1pYA5lI My hair can disappoint me.   I have been working with the texture in the body for years, and that has been a commitment.  I even make my own flaxseed hair gel because the products on the shelves are heavy and give me a headache; the wavy hair tutorials do not skimp on gel.  After Matt finishes his Axe hair gel, I have one full size gel and one travel size gel I have asked him to help me finish.  He said they just better not smell like girl.  One bottle is unscented and one bottle kind of smells like Koolaid, maybe grape.  I would say not girly.  The benefit of flaxseed hair gel is conditioning and nourishing while simultaneously styling.  Flaxseed hair gel is so lightweight.  I can tell a difference since I have introduced the homemade recip...