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I have been wanting to search for this post because it comes into my mind’s presence often but I know I am remembering only the spirit of it.  I could not remember the words I used to scaffold my idea.  Wanting and searching at the same time is exhausting, though!   I am glad the engine I chose for it thought it was worth me remembering today… My favorite phrase Father Joe would recite in preparation of offering communion to the Parish was:  …do this in remembrance of me. #1corinthians11:24 2/25/22 There is a moment I think of when I wrote my meditation in understanding communion for myself.  I do not ask people if I can pray with them.  But I did ask someone one day, and it was a perfect moment in ordinary time I do not feel I will do again unless I am moved like I felt for the first time ever that day.  It feels strange to say I am not moved to that degree often when I am emotionally moved often.  I have felt that quiet as a person.  I was ...

If there is one thing I am grateful for of myself in the present, it is myself in the past.  I don’t know why I do some of the things I do, but sometimes the things I do seeming whack in the present don’t make any great sense until the future.   This thing is not one of those things, but I am grateful for my past self in this present moment nonetheless:   I set a brand new value size jug of detergent on top of the dryer, and I have been setting it there for over one week.    At most it makes only half sense because the dryer is a surface to set it on above waist height.  I have been wanting and wanting to dust and mop the laundry room floors below and behind the laundry units, but it requires grunt work.    So I put it off and put it off and put it off.  I confidently start a load of laundry in the wash machine and commence breakfast this morning.    While at the stove, I hear a thud in the laundry room with a very good as...

  Matt and Hank took a Boys Days Out.  Dixie stayed with me on a Girls Day In.  I had to match Hank’s steak fingers for steak finger today.  Despite sitting down to donuts much later than when I asked Dixie if she was ready already for, I think Dixie had a steak finger basket of a day today, too.   I did have to make up my tardiness for breakfast.  I asked Dixie if I could have a kiss, and she moved her muzzle an inch and some others away from me; I went and got it.  I was happy to be proud of her.  I was preparing supper for myself, and I picked up from the fourth mystery where I left off this morning.  I was thinking how #twentysevenminutes feels different today; it feels less like only one mystery down and more like singing lyrics to a favorite song.  I need to try cooking and chewing bubble gum soon!  One of the fears I had in moving into the home we are making today is: I am going to get every meal stuck and burned on this stov...

Dixie and I share bananas and carrot sticks.  Hank will more likely share carrots with me if he sees Dixie or Harold eating them as #whatsforsnack I was crunching on a stack of carrot sticks amidst handwriting a letter when I realized I have, in fact, influenced another. A friend of mine rang me on the telephone just to say hello and tell me how funny he is finding FRIENDS to be.  How did he find it funny? It was the only show running on the television, and he thought to himself, “Emily likes this show, I guess I’ll see what she likes about it.”  And he saw for himself how #thatshitisfunny  FRIENDS is so funny it is relatable!  I have always believed in the show, I give my gently used vacuums as #agiftfromtheheart and I vacuum my two Roombas, #but the moment I truly believed in the comedy of it was when I caught myself with my dress in my underwear!  I have thought before in “The One with Barry and Mindy’s Wedding”, there is no way Rachel is about to walk d...

I heard a voice I am familiar with.  We had not talked for cost in months.  He told me something like a prayer and something that made me smile. First) “I feel like Job.” #likeaprayer [2/12/22 This is not the first time I have heard a feeling like that told to me.  It is the second time.  The first time I was told this was a Wednesday #inordinarytime I was walking Tax, and we passed a team of landscapers.  They were trimming trees.  I don’t remember how I entered into a conversation with one of the men, I just had.  He told me how he related to Jonah.  The sweeter thing he asked me, though, was my opinion: He had a girl in his sights.  The girl was involved in her community and well educated and continuing her education in the moment.  He was a simple man trimming trees with a past.  I could see what she saw in him, and how he spoke of her, I imagined she was lovely.  I encouraged him confidently #heshould pursue her. And then ...

  I had a happy moment happen to me this morning while I cleaned the kitchen.   In the background of my everyday thoughts in my routine, I remembered: Adam gave me encouragement one day at the gate, “You’ll know where you want to be.”  His encouragement felt so far away when he gave it to me, but the more important feeling I felt when I received it is: I had started.   I was already on my way.   [2/18/22 I revisited my jot-thought journal, and I read one of my first entries: Be the me I’m meant to be.  If it’s not the me I want to be, it’s not the me I’m meant to be.] I had a conversation with my Godmother over the weekend, and I was remembering my first days of writing to myself.  I wrote quite heavily.  I remember how I felt proud of myself, too, I shared entries with my mom.  One of my own first understandings I captured for myself is how God is a God of empathy.   My happy moment this morning was: I heard my own understanding.  ...

I have never told myself I want to be a Proverbs 31 woman.    I could not use the pressure I can put on myself. I have, however, asked myself why do I feel I have no influence on people.   I followed a trail of breadcrumbs when I went seeking this answer, and I was contented by what I found, a checklist of specifics.    I just am.   I found my answer, too.    I am respected by those who agree with my encouragement.    #goodinfluence  6:57p The words I was trying to find for myself of how reading the item listed regarding influence came to me in a Lil’ Wayne song #ilisteneverywhere while I was exercising: “We walk the same path, but got on different shoes.” 1 Corinthians 15:10